So here we sit.... Iced in and snowed in... Not like the snow up north or in Alaska but still.... Now do not misunderstand me I like the snow but not when it lasts like this. Frankly it blows but I have learned over the last couple of years to deal with it. I mean I am well maturing shall we say and my kids have had more ice and snow days off from school then I did my whole 12 years there. It is fair I tell myself. Secretly though I want to wiggle in it and throw big fluffy balls of the stuff at my kids. And so here we venture off onto day two of snow 2011. Well it gives me time to catch up on homework that I sort of did not accomplish yet. It gives honeyboo time to get the walls and floor finished. And the kids well they will eat their way through tomorrow... It will be fun.. No not really... See for me EVERYBODY being home well it gets cramped and I begin to panic a little as I am just that way. Large crowds make me extremely nervous as does being cornered in one spot. It sucks. I have managed over the years to deal with the nervousness that it brings. I just have to keep myself busy tomorrow to not let the panic take over. Now how we came about a 4th child.. Yes a 4th....
Blondie has a long time friend who was not in a good situation. The circumstances are not my affair, but the child needed a place to go. So we gave him one. It was his decision and his alone. He talked with Gma and they worked out a deal. But in the process I am being blamed for interfering. Maybe perhaps, but explain to me how? So I am also dealing with all that drama from said accusers. Some times I wonder what makes people do the things they do. I wonder how often people shut their mouths and really listen and accept that we all got issues. How often can people take the stone cold hard truth that they have problems? Seriously, after what was said about me by someone who does not even know me or my family and is going off hearsay and openly admitted that I wonder exactly where they were when this happened? I mean think about it. And I am certain my oldest child said things and some of those things were taken out of context but it is no one's right to judge me or my family.
We all need help from time to time. We all have to learn who we are and what we want from life. It is a journey if you think about it. Sometimes, the wheels come off the wagon so to speak and you have to take time to repair those wheels before you can put them back on and make the wagon go. Another analogy would be a puzzle... You take it out and put it together. Then it gets knocked off and you pick it up. Then when you attempt to put it back together again, there always seems to be one little piece that does not go in there any more. And there you go you puzzle is no longer complete. So that one piece that does not fit may have to go into another puzzle or be reworked so that it will fit again. If you try to work on it, then the piece will fit again. Again, it is not my affair as to whom in the situation is right or wrong or who should get the blame. My issue is to see that the boy gets what he needs and help that he needs to try and maybe make all his pieces fit again. Even though that means taking him in for shelter, food, clothing and love.It is something that needed doing no matter what the circumstances.
That said the journey of all our lives are filled with pieces and potholes and sometimes craters. It is how we deal with these and what we do with them that makes it work or fail. Place blame? Or say you know what I am going to figure this out. Placing blame is easy for anyone. It is hard for one who wants to stand on his or her own two feet and say ENOUGH already. Every human has a breaking and turning point in life. Every human has to make a heavy decision at some point. If a human does not, then there are serious issues.
So I feel better. Wish us lots of luck this next week as we all venture down a new road. Honeyboo starts his new job next week so this should prove to be fun.
And I think now since it is 13 degrees out I am going to shower and snuggle down in my bed.
Night all have a great frozen week. Live from what seems to be the frozen tundra, night.
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